any other Thursday

Just got Layla Marie to sleep, lets hope it lasts more than 20 minutes so I can actually get something done. I should be taking a nap, but eh, I want to get this started.

She is 16 days old. She is absolutely gorgeous, loves to nurse, and has a great temperament. Aaron says she is "colicky" but she so is NOT. Yes, maybe she cries in the evening, and maybe Kelly never cried as a baby, she did however have her fussy time around 6pm every evening, for the first several weeks of her life. I think he is just confused because #1, he doesn't remember this about Kelly, and #2 he is at work all day, comes home right around when she starts getting fussy, so he really has no idea how good she is all day. Yes she cries, that is how babies communicate! I'll get more into when she was born and that which happened after, but for the most part, my mom came out the Saturday after (she was born early on a Tuesday), and just left yesterday afternoon...Also, Aaron has been logging in long days at work, so he has hardly been around any ways to really know. Yesterday we were both exhausted (I am everyday, but thats a given), so hopefully things will get better.

My mom (Granny) took Kelly with her to Colorado yesterday. We remain here in North Carolina. This enabled her to fly for free one last time before she turns 2, and will make it much easier for Layla and I to get to CO. I can't even imagine flying by myself, with an almost 2 year old and a newborn! No way! So, we go out next Wednesday. Aaron will then follow on the next Monday, to continue his training at Ft Carson in Colorado Springs. He will be out there 4 weeks, and the girls and I will stay longer most likely. He'll be in an apartment of some sort, and we will be at Granny's house. Hopefully he will have time to see us while he is there. I imagine he will, because when he was in FL for his other clinicals he had quite a few days off, so we'll see. Then he has 4 weeks until the last phase of his training, Robin Sage, which is another 4 weeks out in the field so again, we will stay in CO. Most likely we will just stay the entire next 12 weeks until he graduates, but nothing is set in stone yet. I don't understand how he seemingly can go away, and be away from us so frequently, and it doesn't seem to affect him. I hate when he's gone, and think about him a lot; I'm not saying he doesn't think about me or the girls, I don't know what he's thinking, I don't know. Kelly has been gone for less than 24 hours and I miss her like crazy!! I just hope him being away so early in Layla's life doesn't affect the bond they should be forming to each other. Its bad enough he thinks she cries a lot...

Things I am looking forward too:
1. Running again!! I am having serious withdraws. In the last several weeks of Layla's pregnancy I was only able to run once a week and walk other days, and was working too, but certainly not much compared to what I would have liked to have been doing. Since she was born, I have gone on 2 short walks, which totally wiped me out, so waiting I must. I just want my nice, toned, skinny, legs back!
2. Loosing the baby weight. I lost 17.5# right off, having done nothing but birth a baby and nursing. But, now I have plateaued, since my appetite has seemed to quadrupled! I need to exercise, but know I need to wait. I am still bleeding, and whenever I do to much, it gets heavier, and that's not good. Still have about 8# to loose, to get down to 118, heavier than my pre-pregnancy weight, but, I was too light to begin with...being realistic though, I know I won't get that low until after I am done nursing, or if I start marathoning again, because that's what it took after Kelly was born to loose all the weight.
3. Colorado. I do not like the south, not where we live any ways. Fayetteville/Raeford, NC is NOT the place you want to live. There is not much to do, and the weather is awful. I hate humidity, and have so much heat. blah.

Layla is asleep again (I have been writing the blog off and on all morning) so I better try to take a nap myself. I want to write more, but will do so later....